If any of you know me, you know that I am a very passionate and caring person. When I see a friend who is down about something, the second I get called, I'm there for that person through and through.
What I don't understand is the second they get "better" it's okay to just forget about me. My heart breaks just as easily as everyone else's... if not easier, because I'm such a passionate person. The people who deserve my love, get it. It's the worst feeling in the world to find out that the person didn't deserve it all. Here my heart is going "what the fuck were you thinking" and my brain is actually in agreeance with my heart, which is a first.
I'm sorry, heart. I really am. You deserve better than that.
"We'll be friends forever"
I should have known that that was bullshit.
I really hope one day you realize that you made a mistake, because I am a good person. I thought you were, too. I can't always be right, can I?
I just wish sometimes I could shut off my heart and not care about anyone. I may be a bitter shrewd, but at least I won't feel anything. I need to try something different, because I always let my heart down. I find the best in people until they prove me wrong, and I have been proven wrong so much that I just can't take it anymore.
Anyways, I'm done with this mini rant.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Dear Tim and Michael
I am so thankful that you are in my life. I couldn't have asked for better brothers. No matter what, I know that I could go to both of you when I have a problem. I love you both so much and I don't say it enough.
My favorite thing to do with you guys is wake up Christmas morning and start watching A Christmas Story before waking everyone up around 8 or 9. That's the time that we just get to hang out. You guys gave me some of the best friends I could have asked for, too.
You two may be sarcastic buttholes sometimes, but it's never a dull moment with you guys. There things that we understand that no one else ever will. I love that I have that with you two. There aren't many families who are as close as we are, and that makes me smile.
I love you guys! Thanks for being the best big brothers I could have ever asked for! <3
Love always, Jenna
My favorite thing to do with you guys is wake up Christmas morning and start watching A Christmas Story before waking everyone up around 8 or 9. That's the time that we just get to hang out. You guys gave me some of the best friends I could have asked for, too.
You two may be sarcastic buttholes sometimes, but it's never a dull moment with you guys. There things that we understand that no one else ever will. I love that I have that with you two. There aren't many families who are as close as we are, and that makes me smile.
I love you guys! Thanks for being the best big brothers I could have ever asked for! <3
Love always, Jenna
Monday, October 3, 2011
Dear Haters.
Let me just say one thing.
Stop talking shit about me. I am flattered that I'm the center of your world because all you do is talk about me and my business, but just stop. Focus on your own lives, and stay out of mine.
Now that I got that out of my system...
I am finding it so hard to trust people these days, which is a good thing and a bad thing. Good thing because I am wayyyy too trusting and a bad thing because I'm wayyy to trusting. See the confliction here? To the people that I thought were my "friends" I found out that they really weren't because they didn't have me in their best interest. They had my business in their hands, and decided to tell everyone. I'm sorry, but if I hear someone talking about one of my friends in a negative way, I would step in, tell them to shut the eff up and stop talking about my friend. I wouldn't join in on the conversation and have a shit-talking party about them. That might just be me, though.
Weird concept, friendship.
Anyways. Mini rant. Done. =]
Stop talking shit about me. I am flattered that I'm the center of your world because all you do is talk about me and my business, but just stop. Focus on your own lives, and stay out of mine.
Now that I got that out of my system...
I am finding it so hard to trust people these days, which is a good thing and a bad thing. Good thing because I am wayyyy too trusting and a bad thing because I'm wayyy to trusting. See the confliction here? To the people that I thought were my "friends" I found out that they really weren't because they didn't have me in their best interest. They had my business in their hands, and decided to tell everyone. I'm sorry, but if I hear someone talking about one of my friends in a negative way, I would step in, tell them to shut the eff up and stop talking about my friend. I wouldn't join in on the conversation and have a shit-talking party about them. That might just be me, though.
Weird concept, friendship.
Anyways. Mini rant. Done. =]
Friday, September 30, 2011
Dear Mi Familia Freestone/Price
Hopefully this one will work.
I wanted you to know how much you guys mean to me.
James made me a promise that if we weren't married by the time we were 30, we would marry each other. But regardless of if we would have gotten married or not, you guys still turned into my family. You guys are so strong, and one of the most beautiful families I have ever met.
The way you guys are with each other, and the way you guys are with me... It's like I've always belonged... I was the albino Mexican. I thank God for you every day. I thank Jimmy for you every day. You have turned into my family, and you're stuck with me. I just wanted you to know how much I love you and miss you every day.
<3333333333 you so much.
Jenna Rae Marie Kvale
I wanted you to know how much you guys mean to me.
James made me a promise that if we weren't married by the time we were 30, we would marry each other. But regardless of if we would have gotten married or not, you guys still turned into my family. You guys are so strong, and one of the most beautiful families I have ever met.
The way you guys are with each other, and the way you guys are with me... It's like I've always belonged... I was the albino Mexican. I thank God for you every day. I thank Jimmy for you every day. You have turned into my family, and you're stuck with me. I just wanted you to know how much I love you and miss you every day.
<3333333333 you so much.
Jenna Rae Marie Kvale
Monday, July 25, 2011
Dear Dad and Mom
I couldn't have gotten luckier getting parents like you two. You are honestly the best parents in the world. I checked.
When I got into that stupid car accident, you guys were there for me every step of the way, even when I couldn't walk. You stayed at the hospital with me, you stayed in Rehab with me, you cried with me, and you laughed with me. You helped make the pain go away. Heaven forbid that I couldn't fall asleep and sure enough one of you would be there until I could. This accident happened three years ago, and to this day, it still impacts me. I don't think I could have healed so fast if you guys weren't there every step of the way.
When James died, you guys sat with me until I couldn't cry anymore and needed to be alone. You listened patiently when I would have little sobs in between the stories I was trying to tell you about something crazy that him and I did, and when I finally broke down and couldn't talk anymore, you were there to hold me. You understood the heartbreak I was feeling, and you knew that it would take some time for things to get better. On my darkest days, you reminded me that love is everything, and that I could pull through this. Every time that I would start crying you would always tell me "James wouldn't want you to be sad." and every time I would say "I don't want to be sad, it's just that a major part of my heart is missing." I was trying so desperately hard to find it. I did when you guys asked me to go through my school things and I found a card from him and his brother. I found something that James had given me and I wouldn't have if I didn't go through those things. It still hurts me some days, but you two are always there.
You also believe in me, Michael and Tim so much. If we wanted to do anything, you guys tell us to go for it and follow our dreams. (Only exception is if we wanted to be a drug dealer or something) Like with my singing thing, you tell me I can do it, I just have to want it enough.
You are truly amazing parents, and I love you both more than words could ever describe. You mean everything to me. You're a couple of my best friends. I love you mom and dad!
Love always and forever,
Jenna Rae Marie
When I got into that stupid car accident, you guys were there for me every step of the way, even when I couldn't walk. You stayed at the hospital with me, you stayed in Rehab with me, you cried with me, and you laughed with me. You helped make the pain go away. Heaven forbid that I couldn't fall asleep and sure enough one of you would be there until I could. This accident happened three years ago, and to this day, it still impacts me. I don't think I could have healed so fast if you guys weren't there every step of the way.
When James died, you guys sat with me until I couldn't cry anymore and needed to be alone. You listened patiently when I would have little sobs in between the stories I was trying to tell you about something crazy that him and I did, and when I finally broke down and couldn't talk anymore, you were there to hold me. You understood the heartbreak I was feeling, and you knew that it would take some time for things to get better. On my darkest days, you reminded me that love is everything, and that I could pull through this. Every time that I would start crying you would always tell me "James wouldn't want you to be sad." and every time I would say "I don't want to be sad, it's just that a major part of my heart is missing." I was trying so desperately hard to find it. I did when you guys asked me to go through my school things and I found a card from him and his brother. I found something that James had given me and I wouldn't have if I didn't go through those things. It still hurts me some days, but you two are always there.
You also believe in me, Michael and Tim so much. If we wanted to do anything, you guys tell us to go for it and follow our dreams. (Only exception is if we wanted to be a drug dealer or something) Like with my singing thing, you tell me I can do it, I just have to want it enough.
You are truly amazing parents, and I love you both more than words could ever describe. You mean everything to me. You're a couple of my best friends. I love you mom and dad!
Love always and forever,
Jenna Rae Marie
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Dear Emma
First off let me start by saying how incredibly talented you are as a photographer. Okay, now that I got that off my chest, I have a bit to say to you.
You are a special kind of person. Not only have we not officially met, but you talk to me like you've known me for a very long time. I feel like I've known you for a very long time. No matter what the situation I am in, whenever I'm really sad, you're there for me. You never have to respond, but you always do. You have such a way with saying things that make me feel better instantly. You're a true beauty, inside and out, and one in a million. We're almost perfect strangers, and yet I can trust you like one of my close friends.
So thank you, for being one of the most amazing people that I have ever got the pleasure of talking to. =] =]
~Jenna Rae Marie.
You are a special kind of person. Not only have we not officially met, but you talk to me like you've known me for a very long time. I feel like I've known you for a very long time. No matter what the situation I am in, whenever I'm really sad, you're there for me. You never have to respond, but you always do. You have such a way with saying things that make me feel better instantly. You're a true beauty, inside and out, and one in a million. We're almost perfect strangers, and yet I can trust you like one of my close friends.
So thank you, for being one of the most amazing people that I have ever got the pleasure of talking to. =] =]
~Jenna Rae Marie.
Dear Future Boy.
Here I am sitting and thinking what I would say to the boy who will capture my heart, give me butterflies, and slap a permanent smile on my face. I don't know what I want to say to you, or how to say it. All I know is that our love is going to be amazing. I'm not talking about storybook "You'll be the prince and save me from the dragon that you'll slay to win my heart over." I'm talking about the let's gaze under the stars, talk about everything, hold hands, let's get into fights and apologize and be real with each other.
I'm not perfect, and you're not perfect, but love is perfect. I believe in soulmates, and how you feel when you meet your soul mate. You feel completely whole. The story that I heard took place back in ancient Greece, and humans had 4 arms, 4 legs, and a single head with two faces. Zeus was afraid of the power that the humans had and split them in half, and they are condemned to search for their other halves. So I'll wait for my other half, and hopefully he's waiting for me, too.
Maybe I'll meet you tomorrow, maybe I've known you for a long time, and maybe you're someone that it just hasn't clicked for me yet. All I can say is that we have all the time in the world to find each other and until that day comes, I'll miss you.
Love always,
Jenna
I'm not perfect, and you're not perfect, but love is perfect. I believe in soulmates, and how you feel when you meet your soul mate. You feel completely whole. The story that I heard took place back in ancient Greece, and humans had 4 arms, 4 legs, and a single head with two faces. Zeus was afraid of the power that the humans had and split them in half, and they are condemned to search for their other halves. So I'll wait for my other half, and hopefully he's waiting for me, too.
Maybe I'll meet you tomorrow, maybe I've known you for a long time, and maybe you're someone that it just hasn't clicked for me yet. All I can say is that we have all the time in the world to find each other and until that day comes, I'll miss you.
Love always,
Jenna
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